Once Upon a Night

11.15 pm. Unlike the usual nights, we both spent the time 'til nearly midnight, preoccupied with our own laptops in silence. The background music was the soft 'Quite Storm' station on the Yahoo Launchcast, a total mood-maker!

Anyway, there we were; me with my thesis and him with his own research proposal. As the night sank in, I felt a sudden rush of gratitude inside. Then I realized, here we are living in an estranged country, dwelling in a small room, just the two of us...

This is just what I've been imagining about since I was young. Now, being married for exactly 1 year, 8 months and 1 day (yesterday was our monthly anniversary ;-) ), I realized that sometimes we take things for granted. We don't realize all the good things God had bestowed us with. Sometimes happiness lies in a concealed form, and we must dig down to reveal what's really inside.

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A piece of theory

Once I read this book about human psychology (I forgot the title), but anyway it gracefully explained about the 'numbness' which we, as normal beings, normally experience over time.

The author described the numbness with practical instances, such as the feeling that you'd feel when you're in the bathtub, having a warm bath. Sometimes you no longer feel the nice feeling of warm water after soaking and laying still in the bathtub for a while. But when you move some parts of your body i.e. legs or arms, then you suddenly feel the rush of nice warm water brushing against your skin all over again.

That was just a practical way to define 'numbness'. Non-metaphorically, this is what really happen with our life, our marriage, our friendship. There are some days that you just feel so numb, and you no longer realize how much happiness you are actually in.

Every once in a while we should 'move our body parts'- or so to say - to feel again the warmth that encircled our life with. That way you'd feel that your life is renewed, and thus you'll be more grateful of what you've already had.